Realizations

How hard could it be to be near you
and not be with you?

A million battles rage in my mind:
Should I or should I not
fall deeper into the trap
or realize that there is no trap.

I chose to stay away.

Because you’re keeping a promise
and I’m just a fool who wants to break it.

I am witness to a lie

I am witness to a lie
I have thrust upon myself
Believing in dreams that are only of my own
Longing for a heart that does not want to be found
Staying up to stumble upon you by some uncanny chance

I am witness to a lie
I have thrust upon myself
But continue to believe in
Every day and every night
Until I find you there
Only God knows where
Until we're finally side by side
And we know that everything will be all right

Until the rhymes cease

I do not want to see you here
Or hear you speak to me, my dear
Because I could never resist
Those lips which I so long to kiss
So I must try to stay away from you
Before my feelings bare to be true
I keep my guard and look away
Not allowing a chance for me to say
Everything that should be known by now
The chancing of a broken vow
The promise of a love that’s true
A patiently waiting love for you

But for you to know will be my demise
And so I put on my disguise
I grit my teeth as I let you be
And you walk further away from me

Such is the pain I have to endure
For this kind of love has no cure
To love a heart that loves another
Who treats me as a lowly brother

I look for you all day and night
But wish that you were out of sight
For though you’re gone it still is clear
In my heart you will always be near
Haunting me like an unfulfilled soul
With feelings which have gone out of control
With longing that might never end
The tragedy of loving just a friend

Sleep my dear

Sleep my dear
The night is deep
The evening calm fills the darkness
Your tired little eyes need to rest

Follow the comfort of the sheets
Lay your tender head in bed
Fall into the sweet embrace that surrounds you
And bow to witness the end of another day

Your dreams beckon you
As do I
And I shall find you there
For you are always at my side

In the comfort and coolness of the night
Till the dawn of a bright new day