You know that I’ve given up the idea of anything romantic between me and her, but every time I see her, I just can’t help myself. There’s really something about her that I just can’t resist. It’s her totality, her presence. I don’t know really. It’s just her being there.
I can’t help myself when I’m around her. No matter how much I prep myself that what I’m going through is just a phase, when she’s there, I just drop to my knees. No matter how much I convince myself that not listening to my feelings will be best for everyone, when I sense her presence, I just melt.
Tonight, she’s got me going crazy. I can’t live with this. I’m forcing myself to look at this as an omen. All things do happen for a reason. I believe that now. And I’m looking forward to the future.
