The first kiss goodbye

You were the ultimate. The sexual tension between us was out of control. Something was bound to happen. We've never beeen more than friends and now, we can't even be friends.



So as I lay sleeping, wrapped in the cold Baguio air, you came over and gave me a kiss. I opened my eyes, realized it was you and gave you a smile. I reached for your hand and invited you to sleep with me. You gave in. I gave in first.



We were wrapped in each other, but it was still cold. Add another irony to our should-have-been relationship.



Things were bound to change after that night.

Clipped Wings

I realize today that I've paid my dues. You've taken advantage of me. You've drained everything you can from me. You've kept me for too long.

I've done my part. I've served you well. I've given you all that you've asked me. I humbly abided by your plan.

It's time for me to go.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. I have served my purpose. I've done more than you've asked of me. I've given you so much of me. Maybe too much of me. And I haven't been thinking about myself.

Resurrect

The demons of my past finally caught up with me. They have tormented me. And they have passed.

Now, the day breaks with hope, not just longing. I am able to stand firm, sit calmly, and finally, sleep in peace.

I have faced the wretched faces of weakness, defeat, desperation, hopelessness, hate, fear, insecurity, and all their allies. I have felt my flesh wither, my soul die, my life fade away. I have been reduced to bone and have been burned again till all but ashes remain.

I have lived out my sentence. I have served my time. The war is over. The storm has passed.

As the tears dry, I rise from the pits. I rise above the darkness of the earth and the clouds. I am light to the world, salt of the earth. Marred by a life thought to be unworthy, I tread on, grounded with the faith that has been entrusted in me.

I realize that I am human after all, and that it’s all right to feel pain, hurt, fear, regret, cowardice, and whatever weaknesses befall us. What has passed will never be ours again, but what lies ahead will always be in our hands.

I'm watching the sun set. I'm waiting for the dawn to break.

Rapture

Our love was defined by passion filled moments. It was earthly, shallow, and de-humanizing. It was filled with temporary bliss, pleasures so passing that we do it over and over again. It arouses our inner instincts, but leaves our souls empty.



I've been ashamed. I've tried to stay away from you. I realize that I can't hide forever. I've tried hard to make peace with myself, and to a point I have. But you will always be the personification of rapture.



Let's not think. Let's just do what feels right, what feels good.

Outside Starbucks

Living in the moment, I yearn so much for the next. Seeing the good that I've been given, I look forward to what more is in store. With giant eyes and clear blue skies, I hold my breath for life's next surprise.

Sayang

That's where you made a mistake.



We would have been so perfect for each other. We would have had the time of our lives. I would have given you the attention and appreciation you deserved. You would have given me the magic I was looking for.



But instead of hooking up, instead of making things work, you chose not to. You stuck to what you had. I was in a daze then. You would have been my queen. We would have been so in love.



Now, you're just another could have been.

What’s in a name?

Her bright eyes lit the plain dark night
Her smile was such a heavenly sight
The skies are clear
The stars are here
Grant the wish I make tonight