Bound

My shoulders ache from the cramped walls—walls that grow closer and closer with each breath. My breathing is mulled as I dread that each gasp I take is another less. My vision settles on a stagnant blur. The world slowly spins as I spin against it—leaving me in a helpless haze. My spirit is frozen and I am immobile.

Another Day

She wanted to talk to me outside the SocSci AVR. She warned me two days before. I had no idea what was coming. I didn't know what to expect.



She told me about a rumor she'd heard being passed around. I was supposedly telling everyone that I can win over all of her friends one by one. I never said such a thing.



She kept a straight face the whole time. I knew she didn't believe me. My actions were too loud and told of a completely different story. Somehow, I couldn't blame her. I was the king of ambiguity. I didn't know what I wanted cause I always wanted more. But I did know that I wanted her friendship--I knew that I'd miss her if she were to go. At times, I still do.



I passed by her condo before I went home that day. I left her a note. I said I'd get to the bottom of the mess. I told her I'd clear things up. I told her that she was one of the best things that's every happened to me.



And that was the end of how we were.



Things have never been the same. We've both moved on and our lives are as separate as the sun and the moon.

STL

See the light?

A few weeks ago, I was frustrated.
A few days ago, I was confused.
A couple of days ago, I was hopeful.
Today, I am enlightened.

Everything you need is within your reach.
Open your eyes, free your mind.

No time for trivialities.

40 Days & 40 Nights

I am set on proving to myself that I can.
I want to cleanse my soul and revive my spirit.
The fire is set, the flame is burning.
Fate will make way for me.
I am strong and I am graced
And I'm going to go through this head on.

Late Night & Early Morning Promises

Around the time of orange skies and feathered songs,
I make these promises

To see the world through His eyes
To take charge of the day
To love those within my reach,
and even those who are far
To respect myself
body and soul—flesh and blood
To cherish simple joys
And find value in all things living
Not to shun foresight
Not to waste away in a daze
Not to shrivel in a tiny corner of my mind
To seize opportunities and milk them
To act on plans
And to deliver promises

All for the Creator's glory
And for peace in my soul

Fact & Fiction

I am able to distinguish between you and her. I can wrap myself with visions of her, and throw nonchalant smiles when you pass by. I have let go of the hope of you being here now, but I stubbornly refuse to let go of hope for tomorrow.

Simple Glances

I have you for the next hour
Planted in my mind
The curves, the peaks, the valleys
The sweetness and the sweat
Sounds escalating up to the crest
Felt all over
Trapped in the head