Late night driving

The open road takes me away
From somewhere I ought to be

Familiar voices
Knock upon my heart's door
But the answers don't come
Cause I have no courage left
To mingle with replacement people
Or to pretend to be chasing dreams

My hands are cold
My soul is weary
Surrounded by empty seats
Conversations only I can hear
Cause I'm the only one listening

To be helpless for so long
Is to live with a heart half asleep
Forced to move in motion
But without purpose or direction
A banal existence

Where do these roads lead
When my destination is not my destiny
And it feels like there is no end
I ask the questions
I try to live them
Hoping that I will get there
Will I ever get there?
Somewhere, not here

Said & Unsaid

I'm sorry
But your eyes
I looked in
And now I'm under your spell
I didn't mean to come off so strong
But I just couldn't resist
Else my heart would have burst with longing

Did I speak too soon?
Or cross the line?
Did my advances scare you away?
But I've had the chance to talk to you
And I'm certain that I could talk with you day and night
That our lives would be twice full with each other's company

Did I lose my chance?
In my haste?
In fear?
In this insecurity
That you wouldn't be there when I turn?
But knowing what you truly want
You can't wait for life to start
You can't wait another second
And these hours I have to bare

In silence I wait
Carrying a mantra of patience
Trying to distract myself and stay away
But in the end I always find myself here
Wherever I go, I come back here
Whispering words
Staring afar
Thinking about our conversations
Picturing your face
Those piercing eyes
The warmth in your smile
I am caught in the clout that you cast

Am I saying too much again?
Why can't this wait?
Cause this silence is driving me insane
And there is nothing more I'd want in my life right now
Than to find you in it
Sharing stories and dreams and ramblings 'bout the world
Discovering the many mysteries and marvels hidden abound
Drunk with life's passion
Finding myself in your eyes
And knowing that it is here, and only here, that I want to be

I'm sorry
Did I say that out loud?
Was it too much again?
Oh, these words!
If they could only find a way
Without raised eyebrows
Or shocked stares
Without scaring you away

So let these words be written
That I may tell you someday
And when that someday comes
When you'd be reading these lines
When there would be no risk of losing you with this honesty
I know that I'd be the most blessed man
Cause I would finally be with you
And you are all the dreams I could ever have
And all my dreams would have finally come true

Change

Foolish and naïve
We are sometimes led to believe
That all change is good
But even as children play
As the summer sun shines
There are forces beyond us
That even bright dispositions can not overturn
First the clouds--dark and thick
Then the sharp breeze--cutting through defences
Without warning they fall from the sky
All the world's burden
Heavier and heavier by the minute
Soaked in disbelief

Epiphany

I have tried to hide behind a veil of indifference
Afraid of what I might find
But I could not stay away,
I am in it
And I fear that I have found myself here
Cause I no longer want to leave

Sunlight breaks the dark canopy of clouds
The warmth of its beams comfort those in the cold
In the darkness, we feared that the sun was lost
But now we know
That it has found itself in her eyes
And she has brought solace to the weary world
Oh, the brightness in those eyes

Life brings forth a new muse
And it is hard to be the same again

In my mind plays a never ending song
Asking if I could be the one
Wondering if this could be it
And the song plays waiting to be heard
Louder with each of my heart's beating
Longing for an answer
Awaiting a burst of hope

When her lips curl
The toughest of men break
Their defenses fall to the floor
They find themselves at her mercy
When the lady speaks, it shall be done
The gentlest of words tame the cruelest of men
Innocent eyes stir a whirlwind of emotion
A spell cast leaves me wrapped around her intentions
Wanting to be broken

The sky starts to clear
Where will we find ourselves?
Let it begin

Replacements

I am the king of deception
Of words unheard
Eyes from afar
Reality lies on the cutting room floor

Feigned affection
Standard smiles
Glossed eyes empty from within
Feeding on a helpless cycle
Sitting across four sides of white noise
Waking up to half filled beds
Surrounded by replacement people
Waiting for them to turn real

Hear

I thought I heard you laughing
And I swung around to see
Just friends talking, passing by
I thought I saw your silhouette
You were walking towards me
But I turned up and saw that it was someone else in sight

I look around, I listen
I try to find your voice
Amidst the sea of people who see right through me
I take some time to think about the last time you were here
The last time that I was with you
Days, months, away for too long

Where have you gone?
The question comes to me again
Whispered to my heart
Echoing through the hollow walls

And through the day your ghost walks past the corner of my eye
Through the day I hear you laugh and call my name
And amidst the chaos of the world
The noise I drown to muffled moans
Still something gets past
From the blur emerges a faint image that disappears when I turn

A self-made curse
Blinders I have placed
Gates locked from within

Little streets

Forwards and backwards
Here and there
I turn to you
You look into my eyes
I look away
You lay your head on my shoulder

Caught in our own world
I marvel at your passion
And I am engrossed in it
We walk down the same road
No questions or pretense
Beautiful in its simplicity

What is it like to be in love?
Having my arms around you
I feel like I’ve been missing a lot

Not everyone can see the world like you do
I appreciate your independence, your confidence, your light
You reach out for my hand
I take yours and don't let go

You're a free spirit
I never thought I could learn to appreciate someone like you
But you’ve made me find another side of me
You’ve helped me see that I don’t need much to be happy
That happiness is in the simple things
That sometimes all I need is a companion to see the world with

I know that I can't have you
I could, but I shouldn't even try
I'd like to, but I know that I won’t
No need for words or promises
No sense of time
As everything beautiful comes and goes
We rest in the security that fate will lead us to where we belong

Someday, I’d like to walk down those little streets again
I hope that I could do it with someone like you