And now

You had a choice back then
You could have stayed with what you had
Or you could have followed your heart
Listened to your gut
Did what seemed was the wrong thing to do
Took a dive
Took a risk
Closed your eyes
And leapt

I couldn't blame you for staying put
That's what I would have done too
Perhaps too scared to make a mistake
Or too safe to trust fate
Too distracted to see what was in front of you

But where I was
Having met you
I had no choice
I took a deep breath
Swallowed my pride
And jumped into the unknown

Our lives would have been so much different if you had
I can't even begin to imagine the possibilities
But that was how the cards were dealt and played
That was our destiny and our choice

And yet somehow
Through some divine mystery
Life has led our paths to cross once more
This time with different choices
None simpler
Nor easier
But the decisions are ours to make
Not of time
Nor distance
But ours and ours alone

Early riser

I wake up this morning
To stillness in the breeze
When the world is just taking its time
Cause there is nothing on the agenda
Of a thousand so things I am the only one astir
In the cool dead air
My heart beats out of sync

As you are the Goddess of beauty and art
By whose finger's touch my heart blossomed
And from the mundane, I have come alight with awe
As it was you who gave the words
That sparked in me so many others
And has changed my view of this world, for the better
As you are the one who got away
Because of the wrong place and time
Then, and perhaps right now
But who's actions tell the world
That it is time for redemption
I think to myself, as I long for you
You who are so far away, in miles and in thought
Perhaps I could lead you here with my words
Words you will never see, but which the world will hear
If love's powers abound, then my words will lead you to me
And as I know that you are a student of life's light
Somehow, the world will conspire for you to hear what is not said
Feel what is not expressed
And be where we have to be

The sun rises a bit more
The world slowly mumbles and wakes
The picture slowly dissipates
The ghost of you remains
My time has come up
But ours is only beginning

Cusp

I have been caught in the terrible bliss of the bitter for the longest time. When it arrives, I accept it and swallow it whole. I let it seep into the core of me, covering every inch of me until I cease to feel it anymore. There is an unrisen delight in the darkness, in that the sweet is not as sweet without the bitter. And for all my woes, all my suffering in solitude, there is an unbearable light in the end. A light that turns every single minuscule bit of bitterness into sheer delight.

Waiting up

I am a slave to time
And place and reason
Every hour I check
Every minute I wonder
Every second waiting for another
At every turn my eyes follow
And each sound I sift
I am left to sit in patience
As the world continues to spin
Only hope can lead me out of this
It is in the confidence in knowing
Or in the faith that the confidence will come

Remember

There's a particular joy in knowing
That every inch of her is yours
That you can claim any part of her
Just by your touch

You relish the excess minutes
And squeeze time into impossible seconds
Every sigh a poem
A lifetime in her gaze

She's the extension of your soul
A whole other entity to understand
An unchartered beauty to explore
Someone to fill and grow with

You move beyond yourself
Larger than you've ever imagined
The world becomes your playground
All the bitterness has turned sweet

There is magic in the surrender
Equivocated without force or impression
You give in fully and willingly
With a trust that can not be bound

She taps into the core of you
Changing the course of your becoming
You share one spirit, one breath
In a journey without end

Change of luck

It doesn't take much
To strike the core in me
It's just that no one can seem
To find it just that easily

A moment in the sun
A turn in the light
An unexpecting smile
And a feeling you know is just right

You are suddenly caught wondering
What it is that just struck past your soul
And your logic is defeated
Your heart left without control

Asking could this be the moment
Is fate finally taking course
Is it too good to be true
Or can you claim it to be yours

When I close my eyes I see her
I can't wait to be near her
But I wouldn't know what I would do or say
Cause she's already given her heart away

Once again I am left scathed
Fate has left me betrayed
Her brightness is trapped in my memory
I want her out of my mind
But it's hard to drop someone so one of a kind
Another chapter in my unlucky history

Broken

Awake
But my soul sleeps
No words
No thoughts
Empty
Struggling whether to part or to keep
A vision, haunting in its beauty
A blessing and a curse
Though now it brings a mournful tragedy
Left helpless
Alone

Lead me out
But keep me
An addiction
For pain
Light or darkness
I can not tell
But it is all I use to see
Blinded
Stubborn hopefulness and delusion