Tears

There is a joy trapped within us
Past a certain point, it awakes
It binds together and slowly floats away
The memory remains
The ownership ceases to be
As if another self has walked out
Naked in the cold

Tears are words that need to be written
Pain, the child of love
The bitterness accentuates the sweet

Who are we to judge what should be?
We play out our characters
Our destinies lead us past the curtain close

Fifteen

Four hours

That broke five years of silence

Like a drop bringing color to the world

Shades of gray

Shade of blue

An angel in denial

Fallen and covered in filth

Broken wings

A broken heart

I will fill your hurts with comfort
Fix you where you have ceased to feel
Stand with you in your weakness

Nowhere, in between

I sit in solitude

As life floats by

Heaven waits at a distance

Never near

Not knowing I am here

I see the angels

They float on

Such beauty

Such lust

Wanting what can not be

In my thoughts, together

In the space between

Wanting what is bound

A cosmic comedy

A one man tragedy

Pointless sin

Silently, slowly

I die a little each day

Piece by piece

Anguish unceasing

Caught between nothing and a perpetual loss

Let me go

Let me be

I have served my penance

I dream of light

Such light

Bound in brightness

Till I wake

Wave after wave

Those tiny creases

Sun-kissed silk

Between sentences a sultry pout

I run my fingers slowly

Across the golden surface

My eyes do their walking

Sweet anticipation

A luscious clash

Trespass sweetly urged

Down those lovely limbs

Round those curves

Passive agressive possession

Between the sheets

Over and on top

Finding you again and again

Every inch an hour

Sweet salt on skin

Lost in your eyes

We float forever

Stranded in time

Lost in our world

Silhouettes

Here we are

Where we are

My head is stuffy

It feels like I'm still asleep

Two days ago I woke up

And fell asleep again

Caught up in a haze

I couldn't keep my eyes open

I fell back

Today the clouds

They set in

And the fairness

It just ain't as fair

Under the heavy shadows

Life plays a different hue

And I don't see you

I didn't see you

No brilliant colors

No light of day

Wrapped in gray

Just crowded numbers

Lines and graphs

A non-stop to and fro

Yes and no

Maybes and I'll-think-about-thats

Homebound

It's all the same

Another day

Just the same

The cars speed by

Fast and slow

To and fro

Still in a haze

Caught in a maze

Lost in our days

Still unsure

Unknown

Unrealized

When will I wake up?

I feel my body but my mind is asleep

I can feel my breathing but my heart is weak

I see you all but there is nothing

There is nothing here

Wake me up

Grape tree

We meet again

How can it be

Emotional atrophy

I don't mean to be mean

I just don't know what to say

Head bowed I silently walk away

I know I'm better than this

Have made a hundred and one cry

I should have stayed to talk some more

But I was the one who said goodbye

Deep down I know it's wrong

Perhaps I am only in denial

To him your heart belongs

This is all a wasteful trial

But I get lost in you over and over again

Disarmed by that face

Broken down, without defenses

And that smile

Such bitterness, such delight

The only one of it's kind

Your eyes talk

They pour into my soul

If we could see eye to eye

My heart would explode

Your grace and demeanor

Your sarcasm and wit

A million conversations waiting

A lifetime of exploring

A year or so too late

Perhaps a bit too late

Grateful

In the stillness I sit

A calm in my heart

I am grateful

In this place

At this time

There is nothing else I would ask

Greatness it seems is quite a distance away

But it is within sight

My faith is strong

My strength eternal

I have no fear

Everything for a greater purpose

Everything I am is light

Let the light shine for the world to see

Live through me