A million little pieces

Too early for bed
Nowhere to go
Towards the same retreat
Where are we going?

Back to the old timeline
Old habits, old thoughts
We haven't learned a thing
We're back to where we've always been

A thought left untouched
Kept from being opened
Harmless and petty
Without bearing
So, we let them in

Then the cracks start to show
What was hidden is clear
Fragile and about to burst

As the tears flow down
As the gentle sobs emerge
A final blow
An understanding

I am broken
I am beat
Beyond repair

Struggling to keep my act
I wear a brave face
I take comfort in my pretense
I'm okay
I'm all right
I am fine

No,
I am alone

My heart is broken
A million little pieces

I can't save myself anymore
I need You

Bittersweet

By now
The fights have faded out
All the doubts and negativity forgotten
What is left is an empty room
And time that doesn't seem to shift

Solitude brings the past to light
Of times when there was more of me
When there was more to life

When two people grow together
Their fates intertwine
One soul shared in two bodies
Where my hand ended, hers began
I am missing what I've let go
Open-palmed and unattached

I gave up a part of me
Let go of something good
Now only time will tell
Were we foolish or were we wise?

A season of light
In a life half-lived in darkness
Did the sun set too soon?
Or does daybreak just take so long?

I lost myself
But do I want to find myself?
Is what there is to be better than what was?
Or should I just have been content
In the comfort of our being?

Fallen leaves abound
Spring come sooner

Tears

There is a joy trapped within us
Past a certain point, it awakes
It binds together and slowly floats away
The memory remains
The ownership ceases to be
As if another self has walked out
Naked in the cold

Tears are words that need to be written
Pain, the child of love
The bitterness accentuates the sweet

Who are we to judge what should be?
We play out our characters
Our destinies lead us past the curtain close

Fifteen

Four hours

That broke five years of silence

Like a drop bringing color to the world

Shades of gray

Shade of blue

An angel in denial

Fallen and covered in filth

Broken wings

A broken heart

I will fill your hurts with comfort
Fix you where you have ceased to feel
Stand with you in your weakness

Nowhere, in between

I sit in solitude

As life floats by

Heaven waits at a distance

Never near

Not knowing I am here

I see the angels

They float on

Such beauty

Such lust

Wanting what can not be

In my thoughts, together

In the space between

Wanting what is bound

A cosmic comedy

A one man tragedy

Pointless sin

Silently, slowly

I die a little each day

Piece by piece

Anguish unceasing

Caught between nothing and a perpetual loss

Let me go

Let me be

I have served my penance

I dream of light

Such light

Bound in brightness

Till I wake

Wave after wave

Those tiny creases

Sun-kissed silk

Between sentences a sultry pout

I run my fingers slowly

Across the golden surface

My eyes do their walking

Sweet anticipation

A luscious clash

Trespass sweetly urged

Down those lovely limbs

Round those curves

Passive agressive possession

Between the sheets

Over and on top

Finding you again and again

Every inch an hour

Sweet salt on skin

Lost in your eyes

We float forever

Stranded in time

Lost in our world

Silhouettes

Here we are

Where we are

My head is stuffy

It feels like I'm still asleep

Two days ago I woke up

And fell asleep again

Caught up in a haze

I couldn't keep my eyes open

I fell back

Today the clouds

They set in

And the fairness

It just ain't as fair

Under the heavy shadows

Life plays a different hue

And I don't see you

I didn't see you

No brilliant colors

No light of day

Wrapped in gray

Just crowded numbers

Lines and graphs

A non-stop to and fro

Yes and no

Maybes and I'll-think-about-thats

Homebound

It's all the same

Another day

Just the same

The cars speed by

Fast and slow

To and fro

Still in a haze

Caught in a maze

Lost in our days

Still unsure

Unknown

Unrealized

When will I wake up?

I feel my body but my mind is asleep

I can feel my breathing but my heart is weak

I see you all but there is nothing

There is nothing here

Wake me up