You

Days, months, years
Year upon year
An ever changing face

You rise and fall
Appear on pedestals
And come crashing down
You are past and future
But just not now

Small moments
Thoughtful words
Body parts
Filtered scenes
Familiar phrases
The quest
The breakdown
The anticipation

A history of color & texture
Of volume & melody
A cacophony in symphony
A beautiful mess

Tomorrow is a blank canvass
Peaceful, quiet, complete
Perfection in the contrast

Elevator love story

I see you
See me
Still no words, no labels, no names
Silence in this solitude by your side
An arms reach and a world apart

Everyday I look around
I wait, I hope, I tumble
Searching
Waiting
I know you're there but I can't find you
And there you are

What is in that look?
In that smile? That turn?
Every little bit
Stirred and broken down
You keep me in confusion
Bewitched & bewildered

It is clear as day
You are my light
But I wait in the shadows of time
And I can't take it anymore
What else am I waiting for
When it is you?

Everything in me knows
Who you are supposed to be
And who you will become
What's the point of playing around?

I see you
You see me
A smile, a hand, a simple hello
I look into your eyes now

It's our stop
Let's go

A million little pieces

Too early for bed
Nowhere to go
Towards the same retreat
Where are we going?

Back to the old timeline
Old habits, old thoughts
We haven't learned a thing
We're back to where we've always been

A thought left untouched
Kept from being opened
Harmless and petty
Without bearing
So, we let them in

Then the cracks start to show
What was hidden is clear
Fragile and about to burst

As the tears flow down
As the gentle sobs emerge
A final blow
An understanding

I am broken
I am beat
Beyond repair

Struggling to keep my act
I wear a brave face
I take comfort in my pretense
I'm okay
I'm all right
I am fine

No,
I am alone

My heart is broken
A million little pieces

I can't save myself anymore
I need You

Bittersweet

By now
The fights have faded out
All the doubts and negativity forgotten
What is left is an empty room
And time that doesn't seem to shift

Solitude brings the past to light
Of times when there was more of me
When there was more to life

When two people grow together
Their fates intertwine
One soul shared in two bodies
Where my hand ended, hers began
I am missing what I've let go
Open-palmed and unattached

I gave up a part of me
Let go of something good
Now only time will tell
Were we foolish or were we wise?

A season of light
In a life half-lived in darkness
Did the sun set too soon?
Or does daybreak just take so long?

I lost myself
But do I want to find myself?
Is what there is to be better than what was?
Or should I just have been content
In the comfort of our being?

Fallen leaves abound
Spring come sooner

Tears

There is a joy trapped within us
Past a certain point, it awakes
It binds together and slowly floats away
The memory remains
The ownership ceases to be
As if another self has walked out
Naked in the cold

Tears are words that need to be written
Pain, the child of love
The bitterness accentuates the sweet

Who are we to judge what should be?
We play out our characters
Our destinies lead us past the curtain close

Fifteen

Four hours

That broke five years of silence

Like a drop bringing color to the world

Shades of gray

Shade of blue

An angel in denial

Fallen and covered in filth

Broken wings

A broken heart

I will fill your hurts with comfort
Fix you where you have ceased to feel
Stand with you in your weakness

Nowhere, in between

I sit in solitude

As life floats by

Heaven waits at a distance

Never near

Not knowing I am here

I see the angels

They float on

Such beauty

Such lust

Wanting what can not be

In my thoughts, together

In the space between

Wanting what is bound

A cosmic comedy

A one man tragedy

Pointless sin

Silently, slowly

I die a little each day

Piece by piece

Anguish unceasing

Caught between nothing and a perpetual loss

Let me go

Let me be

I have served my penance

I dream of light

Such light

Bound in brightness

Till I wake