North Star

She was the only bright spot in my gray and miserable day.

Neck Deep in the Game

Consistently, we want what we do not have and seek what is impossible to achieve. Is this foolishness or is it practical? Perhaps it's the only respectable and human thing to do.

Crutches

A prideful Atenean is unsightly.
A boastful LaSallian is downright annoying.
The first needs to be humble.
The second needs to have something to be boastful of
before letting out its hot air.

Dip Drip Drop

Dull as a dud
Lost and lazy
Desert dry
and going crazy

Tardy

It's time to get aggressive. Just give me some space and I'll operate.

Laying beside her

I had no idea this was for me at that time. How dense was I?



dancing along streets moonlit

we stop a while to rest and sit

I talk.. you tell of this star

you've been loving from afar

I smirk, and nod, begin to blush

my heart slowly turns to mush.

I know that you watch me talk

and how you whisper when we walk.

but as the bud I'd always been

of your love I could only imagine

my tummy lurches at the thought

that my dream might just be caught.

this girl, you say, makes you whole.

and as you gaze into my soul

I see your heart and know the truth

Au Bon Pan

It was a scene out of a cheezy romantic movie you watch over and over again. We were at opposite ends of a square table, seated beside the glass window of an Au Bon Pan cafe. I'm not sure how to describe what went on behind that glass wall. It felt comfortable; like knowing that you are loved by your beloved as you so love them. If giddy could be turned into a moment, that would be that moment.



We were playing with each other's hands; giving each other lame excuses to touch them. We were so into each other that we made everyone else feel a bit uncomfortable.



In that moment, I knew that she was the one. For only the second time in my life, I knew what I wanted. I could only hope that this time, my heart wouldn't get crushed again. How could it? Everything was happening the way they should...

Bound

My shoulders ache from the cramped walls—walls that grow closer and closer with each breath. My breathing is mulled as I dread that each gasp I take is another less. My vision settles on a stagnant blur. The world slowly spins as I spin against it—leaving me in a helpless haze. My spirit is frozen and I am immobile.

Another Day

She wanted to talk to me outside the SocSci AVR. She warned me two days before. I had no idea what was coming. I didn't know what to expect.



She told me about a rumor she'd heard being passed around. I was supposedly telling everyone that I can win over all of her friends one by one. I never said such a thing.



She kept a straight face the whole time. I knew she didn't believe me. My actions were too loud and told of a completely different story. Somehow, I couldn't blame her. I was the king of ambiguity. I didn't know what I wanted cause I always wanted more. But I did know that I wanted her friendship--I knew that I'd miss her if she were to go. At times, I still do.



I passed by her condo before I went home that day. I left her a note. I said I'd get to the bottom of the mess. I told her I'd clear things up. I told her that she was one of the best things that's every happened to me.



And that was the end of how we were.



Things have never been the same. We've both moved on and our lives are as separate as the sun and the moon.

STL

See the light?

A few weeks ago, I was frustrated.
A few days ago, I was confused.
A couple of days ago, I was hopeful.
Today, I am enlightened.

Everything you need is within your reach.
Open your eyes, free your mind.

No time for trivialities.

40 Days & 40 Nights

I am set on proving to myself that I can.
I want to cleanse my soul and revive my spirit.
The fire is set, the flame is burning.
Fate will make way for me.
I am strong and I am graced
And I'm going to go through this head on.

Late Night & Early Morning Promises

Around the time of orange skies and feathered songs,
I make these promises

To see the world through His eyes
To take charge of the day
To love those within my reach,
and even those who are far
To respect myself
body and soul—flesh and blood
To cherish simple joys
And find value in all things living
Not to shun foresight
Not to waste away in a daze
Not to shrivel in a tiny corner of my mind
To seize opportunities and milk them
To act on plans
And to deliver promises

All for the Creator's glory
And for peace in my soul

Fact & Fiction

I am able to distinguish between you and her. I can wrap myself with visions of her, and throw nonchalant smiles when you pass by. I have let go of the hope of you being here now, but I stubbornly refuse to let go of hope for tomorrow.

Simple Glances

I have you for the next hour
Planted in my mind
The curves, the peaks, the valleys
The sweetness and the sweat
Sounds escalating up to the crest
Felt all over
Trapped in the head

Duality

Two of the same you become
One left in memory
One engaged in reality
Fighting like the poles
To be one

Kamusta na?

Why is that such a hard question to answer?
I mean, given that okay lang isn't really an answer.

What's okay lang anyway?
It's good,
But it's just good
Meaning it could be better
Though it's not really bad
'Cause it is good.
'Di ba?
So in other words, okay lang nga.
Yun na yun.

So, kamusta na nga?

Ang pangit noh?
Wala kang masagot.
Parang may kulang sa mundo mo.
Parang walang highs or lows
Walang storya, walang climax,
Walang epiphany.
So ano nga nangyari sa buhay mo?
Wala?

Kasi rin naman,
Minsan, may storya naman talaga
Kaya lang bawal sabihin,
Bawal malaman,
Bawal pa nga isipin eh.
Kinikimkim kasi.
Mabuti pa na nakatago na lang.
Walang masasaktan,
Walang magiisip,
Walang mga tataas na kilay.

Kamusta na?
Gusto ko mang ibahagi ang mundo ko,
Siguro nga sapat nang malaman na okay lang ako.
Eto, buhay pa rin naman, nagaabang.