I'm an evil, evil person. I'm intrinsically dark. The only reason why I'm in the light is because I avoid temptation. I've come to realize that if I let myself get influenced by the wrong people, if I choose to hang with the wrong crowd, I'd be really dirty.
I've been thinking about this the last few days. I'm not as good a person as I'd like to think myself to be. I'm weak.
It seems like a bad thing to realize this, but on the other hand, at least I know myself more. At least I can be more conscious of staying away from temptation. At least I realize that I am weak and that I need Him in my life.
2 comments:
well..
after i read ur post..parang halo-halo yung naisip ko. in every conflict or change or whatever you call it...you always start by avoiding the issue..and then you realize that there's something more to everythiing...good or bad. but if there's one thing thats nice about that..it's that you get to know yourself better..at least alam mo diba...and you do something about it...hindi yung alam mo na nga, ginagawa mo pa rin...tsk tsk :)
honestly, i don't think your a bad person. (ehehe ako na 'to, yun palagi mo niloloko! ;p) i think you are a good person at heart.
sorry if in doing this i might seem like i'm boxing you but based from my observations you're just an emotional person - which is both good and bad.
well, being stuck with emotions is not good according to ethics since doing good is a rational act which involves going beyond emotions.. i think it's being conscious about your emotions and differentiating it from yourself. you may feel this and that but it does mean you are stuck with that. it's up to you whether you nurture that emotion or not.
(sometimes i also have emotion-packed stuff...moody...and during those moments i find myself doing things i wouldn't normally do if i was rational. like pag naiinis ako, when i get frustrated..i don't think i'm as goody two shoes as i look. well, you should know =p i think you're one of the people who can easily trigger me to be emotional! ;p haha remember those times na nagkakapikunan tayo, it's because i think we let our emotions get the best out of us. sorry sa times na yun..i realized if i actually listened and tried to understand it would have been easier and better. haha napaiyak mo na rin ako no! =p )
but at the same time, i don't want to be too rational to the point that i don't have a heart anymore. i think you have a big heart =) trust me! ;p that's why you get all emotional, you're easily affected by people. you can actually put that into good use since you could easily emphatize.
haha, ang haba na nito! ;p wala lang, i just miss you guys.
as for the dirty thing haha ma-libog ka lang! =p ehehe you're a passionate person, which, again, i think could be put into good use or be turned to the dark side =p atleast, i think...di ka naman repressed no! that would be scary. (di naman diba? haha) lahat ata ng CH ay SM whehe from Nino, to Elg, to you and Timo. qualification ba yun to be a CH in Strains? =p
ok enough na. =p babush!
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