The beginning of the end

You know I've tried to avoid it
But I just fall too fast
It's slowly creeping in
And I'm falling

I can't get you off my mind
Your voice plays on in my head
With no apparent reason
Without planning
Against my will
I break, I fall, I falter

Over and over again
Those tiny steps
Those crazy little faces
The endless stories on the workings of your world
The pulling and the punching
The nagging and the whining
Your graceful assets
And your oh so many faults, weaknesses, and insecurities

Show me all of your undesirables
Push my buttons
Pounce on my weaknesses
Spit on my pride
Let me despise you
Let me loathe you
Let me leave you behind

The first throngs of jealousy
After weeks of indifference
The comfort in your return
The beginning of the end
This whimsical wonder
With no happily ever afters
That slowly drug my soul

I'm losing myself
I lose myself in you