Muse

I lurk in the darkness,

Feed on pain

Emotions stir my soul

Longing is the air I breathe

Suffering is my strength

And you, you are the oppressor

You are my muse

In the pain and tragedy

Set forth by your whims

I find that I am grateful

You stir my soul,

Tempest in my heart

In this misery, I feel most alive

For I know that love lives

In glory and hopefulness, it blooms

You make me hope against hope

I learn to love

Where no love is to be found

Written down

Another day, another chance

Rest asured in this romance

I can see it in your eyes

A million hopes, a million sighs

Never will we fall from grace

Everything in its place

Beyond the now

Even through the questions

We know somehow

In our best intentions

That we were meant to be

However far or late

My faith is strong in you and me

Everyone knows it is our fate

Come back to me

Choices aren't always good

You end up with so many coulds and shoulds

A hundred and one yeses or nos

An endless cycle of tos and fros

In the confusion I'm sure you'll see

You're better off coming back to me

Life's too short to live off of mistakes

We're defined by the choices that we make

You could feel all right in his embrace

But you know you could be in a much better place

You need to be all you can be

You're better off coming back to me

I know the thought has crossed your mind

You know the answer's not that hard to find

Don't worry about the past, it's done

Time will always lead to the right decision

And it will strike you in its simplicity

You're better off coming back to me

Do you even know where you're going?

I don't want to see your heart breaking

It's a crazy complicated life

There's still a destiny we can contrive

Come back to me

Just come back to me

In the morning

I picked you up under hazy intentions

Went out of my way for this intervention

Taking chances out of the blue

This could be the start of something new

Talked about your world just us in the car

The charms, the downs, the now, the far

And right there and then I thought I knew

But it turns out it was far from true

We stuck together for a little while

Exhausting ways to try to make you smile

I turn my head and you were gone

Standing outside with another man

I didn't even take you home

Things you think I should have known

Choices made with hearts on sleeves

Fatal actions our choices leave

It's finally over I proclaim

Now leave be in my disdain

Erased your number from my phone

One last message and everything gone

Time passes and you start to see

What a fool you've come to be

We meet on another rendezvous

But I didn't give a damn 'bout you

On your 7th shot you come to your senses

Sifting through all the false pretenses

You move on to me and all over me

And once again you are all I see

In the morning how will it be?

In the morning joy or misery?

Will all the evil habits break?

Will you give or will you just take, take, take?

All my rules I find that I have been breaking

All that's left of my sanity you're taking

And at the risk of falling back into the blue

I would risk it all to have another chance with you

Back to you again

I just don't understand

Why do I keep on saying goodbye

To find myself back where I started

Where my mind still says that it won't work out

And where other people tell me to give it a rest

Yet, I keep waking up to songs that call out for you

And your smile somehow finds its way into my consciousness

Our last memories in eternal replay

Your face lifts from a blurred out crowd

You are all I see

I try to console myself with all these replacements

I parade, I roll, I call them out

But I never seem to make a move

I make myself available, but I never give in

And I hate myself for doing so

Options abound, but you have sucked out my passion

You've claimed it as yours alone

I can't commit to you

Because you don't give me anything

Yet I'm always here

It seems I don't want to be anywhere else

I hate that I keep trying to stay away

To only find myself always coming back

I hate that I know you're not right for me

But I still keep pushing myself to be around you

I hate it that you just won't say no

You keep me hanging and hoping

But you keep on crushing and maiming

I hate you

I don't love you

I don't want to be around you

Yet you have me

And all of me

Over

And over again