Stolen Moments

It's like a rainy Sunday morning, like a perfect moment that lasts long enough for you to realize that you're missing it.

Toward the end, beauty

So many things are going on right now, even as Christmas is creeping in on us.

It's getting harder to get out of bed in the morning. It's getting harder to focus.

I just want to relax, chill out, sleep in, bum, space out, shut down, deflate, cool off, hang loose, hush, settle back, simmer down, slack, settle down, and unwind.

Confessions

I'm an evil, evil person. I'm intrinsically dark. The only reason why I'm in the light is because I avoid temptation. I've come to realize that if I let myself get influenced by the wrong people, if I choose to hang with the wrong crowd, I'd be really dirty.

I've been thinking about this the last few days. I'm not as good a person as I'd like to think myself to be. I'm weak.

It seems like a bad thing to realize this, but on the other hand, at least I know myself more. At least I can be more conscious of staying away from temptation. At least I realize that I am weak and that I need Him in my life.

Stand proud

I've no reason to feel at fault. This isn't a peter pan world. I've to look out for myself cause no one else will. If anything else, feeling bad just means that I care enough to give a damn. Acknowledging that fact, I've got to take the next step, take the hot seat, and move on.

It's nothing personal. It's just business.

Gamitan

You were my pick-me-up fling. It was a never ending rollercoaster ride. It was fun for me, and terrifying for you. It would have lasted forever too, but I had to take it to the next level. I guess you loved me too much. Or so I think.

But no matter how you look at things, we will always have unresolved conflict. I want to end that conflict one day, but I don't know how.

The first kiss goodbye

You were the ultimate. The sexual tension between us was out of control. Something was bound to happen. We've never beeen more than friends and now, we can't even be friends.



So as I lay sleeping, wrapped in the cold Baguio air, you came over and gave me a kiss. I opened my eyes, realized it was you and gave you a smile. I reached for your hand and invited you to sleep with me. You gave in. I gave in first.



We were wrapped in each other, but it was still cold. Add another irony to our should-have-been relationship.



Things were bound to change after that night.

Clipped Wings

I realize today that I've paid my dues. You've taken advantage of me. You've drained everything you can from me. You've kept me for too long.

I've done my part. I've served you well. I've given you all that you've asked me. I humbly abided by your plan.

It's time for me to go.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. I have served my purpose. I've done more than you've asked of me. I've given you so much of me. Maybe too much of me. And I haven't been thinking about myself.