Lost battle

The pangs of jealousy sink in deep
And again, I can't accept our dispositions
I don't want to be with you,
But I can't stand you being with someone else
Again, the hands of time turn
Again, I am left by myself

Dedication

Everydbody needs a muse, an inspiration, a distant dream that gets you through retched days and guides you where you want to be. You will never know how much you mean to me. You are a bright and distant star that keeps me company and gives me hope on dark lost nights.

Hourglass

A thousand stars fall from the sky
None fall on me
While brightness overwhelms the earth
I sit in the shadows with my eyes closed
Hoping that when I wake
I'll catch my breath
And dry my eyes
In marvel of the light

Closer to the end

Simple words can mean so much
You make me feel stupid and unworthy
And I love it
Still chasing a dream
Still hoping and believing
Another step closer to the end
Another step to a new beginning

A prayer offered

You don't deserve someone like me
You deserve someone better
Someone who'll love you
The way you're supposed to be loved
I pray that you find that person
I pray that you find in him everything that I can never be
I pray that you fall blissfully in love
Find sureness in your eyes
And calmness in your soul
You're a gift from God
And you deserve only the best in life

Despedida

Perfect beginning
I'll see you when I get back
When we'll know for sure

The beginning of the end

You know I've tried to avoid it
But I just fall too fast
It's slowly creeping in
And I'm falling

I can't get you off my mind
Your voice plays on in my head
With no apparent reason
Without planning
Against my will
I break, I fall, I falter

Over and over again
Those tiny steps
Those crazy little faces
The endless stories on the workings of your world
The pulling and the punching
The nagging and the whining
Your graceful assets
And your oh so many faults, weaknesses, and insecurities

Show me all of your undesirables
Push my buttons
Pounce on my weaknesses
Spit on my pride
Let me despise you
Let me loathe you
Let me leave you behind

The first throngs of jealousy
After weeks of indifference
The comfort in your return
The beginning of the end
This whimsical wonder
With no happily ever afters
That slowly drug my soul

I'm losing myself
I lose myself in you