So sick, so tired

Too much of this juvenile fun
What good have they ever done anyone?

We all walk these streets alone
Clothed with colors
But carrying bare souls
Fragile excuses for lives
Touch them and they fade to dust
Blown aimlessly in the wind

Too many words, empty promises
Visions that fade in a fickle sky
Hurried away by the wind
Covered by darkness
Soaked in rain

Too many thoughts of green free fields
Thoughts of sunlight
Of weightlessness and light

The silence is shocked by scattered cracking
See the scars on our backs
See the prisons that are our lives
That we desperately try to dress up
Hoping to maim the pain

A life lived in theory—
The escape of those who can’t accept their sorry lives
Of those who realize that we will all have this end
The pity, the mourning
The story of our lives

I have given up on hope,
I shout it to the world!
I watch in contempt
I have given up on love
And what it is to dream!
The calmness in my chest does not speak
Woe to the world!
The sun shines in silence
Nothing transpires
Where is the storm?

I float
In this unbearable indifference
Detached from the world
Covered in the silence and subtlety that surrounds us

Save me from myself
From this tainted world
This clout that covers everything that defines me
Listen closely and see
Find the unsaid reality
The silence that is shouting
Listen to the words unsaid
Find the omitted
See through me
I am nothing
I am no one

Games

You don’t have to deny it
You drew me closer
And I slowly, carefully moved in
Step by step
By step
Not rushing
Patiently waiting
Subtley playing the game
Oh, the games people play
Over and over
And over again
It’s brought me closer to you
I never thought this could happen
Who would have known?
Who would have known?
Now everyone can see
The foolish are free,
The foolish are free

Closer

I know that there’s something more to that gaze
Beyond your smile
I see the truest of smiles
When our eyes meet
I know you understand what I’m feeling
In your eyes I see the calmness of knowing
And the contentment in getting caught in the moment
How can a look be so gentle and so disarming

Come and stay beside me again
Just sit and smile
And talk to me all day
Tell me again about your summers
And talk to me about the rain
Let me get lost in your eyes
In your warmth and tenderness
Let all days be like this
With beauty in its simplicity
With contentment in being
Stay beside me again

Shots

Give me twenty shots
Then ask me again
And let me choose
From the faces in the moonlight
As it sinks in deeper
The choice becomes clearer
The flaws fade out
And everything that used to matter dies
With each smirk
Each touch of flesh
Each longing look
As the tension builds up
Everything comes to a close
What becomes of this by day?
What become of the night?
To whom shall you retire?
Then ask me again tomorrow
And tell me if it was all worthwhile
Pour me another shot

Again, dawn

The smoke settles
And the day breaks
With half-empty beds
And stained souls
Fragments of slurred words cloud the daylight
Another night meant to be forgotten

The lost continue to lead themselves astray
To find light where only darkness looms
They revel in their shallow earthly pleasures
And bathe in their grime
In the only world they long to live in

I seek that familiar gaze
That delicate smile
That fragile frame
The light in those eyes

Caught up in a world I don’t belong
I remember the simpler days
And the clarity of my commitment

Caught between contrasting pasts and a new day
I come to realize the value of a promise

Again, I come back to you

Bloodshot

The last night before the rest of our lives
You dance before me
For a moment
For an eternity
You come closer
I feel your skin
The sweet sensation
That will never be beyond this
Our eyes meet
You see the depth in my gaze
I see the sympathy in your eyes
You’ll return to another’s arms
Another round
Another set
Another dance, my love
Let go of all that you’ve left behind
And stay in the now
In the touch of skin
In the nearness
My breath on your body
Your heat on mine
In the endless seconds
In this precious moment
Let me be lost in music
In the motion
In your spirit
In all of you
Let me be lost in this deception
Let me pretend
Let me live forever in your memory
Live in mine
In my fantasy
In this brief act of borrowed reality
Let me live with you
In these seconds that will never end
Forget reality
Forget your home
Don't come back
Stay with me
Stay in these fleeting minutes
In the dying seconds
The hurtful, blatant longing
That I will willingly suffer
Goodbye my salvation
Goodbye my dream
Goodbye my horrid addiction

6 Bottles

Another vision
Another dream
Another round for the dreamer
Another round for the night

Only in this haze do you see me
Though in my sober hours I seek you
Only in this dizzy drowse do we meet
Though in my days I see you

I am fortune’s fool again
For chasing after the night
Running away from the dawn
Escaping the bitterness of reality

More and more
I believe in this prophesy
More and more
I am drunk in this dream

Stay awake
Don’t let this dream end
Another round for the dreamer, the foolish
Holding on to this drunken haze

I sit behind you
Beyond anything I can ever reach
An arms touch and a lifetime away
Impotent desire, helpless longing

When you wake up
My arms will be bare
You will feel warmth
I, alone in disbelief

You’ll be coming home soon
And I’ll be left to retrace these nights
When we cross paths again
Let it be in warmth and light and truth

See me in reality
Give chance to this vision
Revel in our truth
Dream with me with open eyes