Another place and time

I tried to tell you once before
On an early morning
A promise whispered to the night

There were a hundred things left unsaid
Then there was another hundred
And then a hundred more

I sought for you
But you were out of sight
But even if I found you
I could never say a word
If my heart could only speak through my eyes
Maybe you could see through my soul
If I could just hold you
You would feel how much I long for your warmth

Could you have heard what I should have said
Did you understand through my gaze
That I wanted to be with you
In that second before we'd smile and turn away
Could you tell that you are all the smiles I would ever need

Tonight I am miles away
And years from that night
In another place and time
Where you should be able to see me
When you can finally hear those words
Could you?
Would you?
Are we where we should be
And if this is it
Will you still be here when it's all done?

Bud

I wandered upon a bud lost in the green
Waiting to be seen
She sleeps, her eyes closed to the world
Darling little girl

Lost in a flowing swaying sea
In the silence of the whispering wind
And the waving trees
Through winters and falls
She sits by herself

Lost in the silence
As the stillness grows deep
Lost in her calm and peaceful sleep
Waiting and waiting for her time to return

She shakes and shivers
Without cries or moans
In a world not her own
She sits silently all alone

Neither slave to sight
Or pawn to the picture
She stays in her gentle disposition
Winning her wistful condition
And waits for the day to be done
She knows that tomorrow will come

So sick, so tired

Too much of this juvenile fun
What good have they ever done anyone?

We all walk these streets alone
Clothed with colors
But carrying bare souls
Fragile excuses for lives
Touch them and they fade to dust
Blown aimlessly in the wind

Too many words, empty promises
Visions that fade in a fickle sky
Hurried away by the wind
Covered by darkness
Soaked in rain

Too many thoughts of green free fields
Thoughts of sunlight
Of weightlessness and light

The silence is shocked by scattered cracking
See the scars on our backs
See the prisons that are our lives
That we desperately try to dress up
Hoping to maim the pain

A life lived in theory—
The escape of those who can’t accept their sorry lives
Of those who realize that we will all have this end
The pity, the mourning
The story of our lives

I have given up on hope,
I shout it to the world!
I watch in contempt
I have given up on love
And what it is to dream!
The calmness in my chest does not speak
Woe to the world!
The sun shines in silence
Nothing transpires
Where is the storm?

I float
In this unbearable indifference
Detached from the world
Covered in the silence and subtlety that surrounds us

Save me from myself
From this tainted world
This clout that covers everything that defines me
Listen closely and see
Find the unsaid reality
The silence that is shouting
Listen to the words unsaid
Find the omitted
See through me
I am nothing
I am no one

Games

You don’t have to deny it
You drew me closer
And I slowly, carefully moved in
Step by step
By step
Not rushing
Patiently waiting
Subtley playing the game
Oh, the games people play
Over and over
And over again
It’s brought me closer to you
I never thought this could happen
Who would have known?
Who would have known?
Now everyone can see
The foolish are free,
The foolish are free

Closer

I know that there’s something more to that gaze
Beyond your smile
I see the truest of smiles
When our eyes meet
I know you understand what I’m feeling
In your eyes I see the calmness of knowing
And the contentment in getting caught in the moment
How can a look be so gentle and so disarming

Come and stay beside me again
Just sit and smile
And talk to me all day
Tell me again about your summers
And talk to me about the rain
Let me get lost in your eyes
In your warmth and tenderness
Let all days be like this
With beauty in its simplicity
With contentment in being
Stay beside me again

Shots

Give me twenty shots
Then ask me again
And let me choose
From the faces in the moonlight
As it sinks in deeper
The choice becomes clearer
The flaws fade out
And everything that used to matter dies
With each smirk
Each touch of flesh
Each longing look
As the tension builds up
Everything comes to a close
What becomes of this by day?
What become of the night?
To whom shall you retire?
Then ask me again tomorrow
And tell me if it was all worthwhile
Pour me another shot

Again, dawn

The smoke settles
And the day breaks
With half-empty beds
And stained souls
Fragments of slurred words cloud the daylight
Another night meant to be forgotten

The lost continue to lead themselves astray
To find light where only darkness looms
They revel in their shallow earthly pleasures
And bathe in their grime
In the only world they long to live in

I seek that familiar gaze
That delicate smile
That fragile frame
The light in those eyes

Caught up in a world I don’t belong
I remember the simpler days
And the clarity of my commitment

Caught between contrasting pasts and a new day
I come to realize the value of a promise

Again, I come back to you