Cusp

I have been caught in the terrible bliss of the bitter for the longest time. When it arrives, I accept it and swallow it whole. I let it seep into the core of me, covering every inch of me until I cease to feel it anymore. There is an unrisen delight in the darkness, in that the sweet is not as sweet without the bitter. And for all my woes, all my suffering in solitude, there is an unbearable light in the end. A light that turns every single minuscule bit of bitterness into sheer delight.

Waiting up

I am a slave to time
And place and reason
Every hour I check
Every minute I wonder
Every second waiting for another
At every turn my eyes follow
And each sound I sift
I am left to sit in patience
As the world continues to spin
Only hope can lead me out of this
It is in the confidence in knowing
Or in the faith that the confidence will come

Remember

There's a particular joy in knowing
That every inch of her is yours
That you can claim any part of her
Just by your touch

You relish the excess minutes
And squeeze time into impossible seconds
Every sigh a poem
A lifetime in her gaze

She's the extension of your soul
A whole other entity to understand
An unchartered beauty to explore
Someone to fill and grow with

You move beyond yourself
Larger than you've ever imagined
The world becomes your playground
All the bitterness has turned sweet

There is magic in the surrender
Equivocated without force or impression
You give in fully and willingly
With a trust that can not be bound

She taps into the core of you
Changing the course of your becoming
You share one spirit, one breath
In a journey without end

Change of luck

It doesn't take much
To strike the core in me
It's just that no one can seem
To find it just that easily

A moment in the sun
A turn in the light
An unexpecting smile
And a feeling you know is just right

You are suddenly caught wondering
What it is that just struck past your soul
And your logic is defeated
Your heart left without control

Asking could this be the moment
Is fate finally taking course
Is it too good to be true
Or can you claim it to be yours

When I close my eyes I see her
I can't wait to be near her
But I wouldn't know what I would do or say
Cause she's already given her heart away

Once again I am left scathed
Fate has left me betrayed
Her brightness is trapped in my memory
I want her out of my mind
But it's hard to drop someone so one of a kind
Another chapter in my unlucky history

Broken

Awake
But my soul sleeps
No words
No thoughts
Empty
Struggling whether to part or to keep
A vision, haunting in its beauty
A blessing and a curse
Though now it brings a mournful tragedy
Left helpless
Alone

Lead me out
But keep me
An addiction
For pain
Light or darkness
I can not tell
But it is all I use to see
Blinded
Stubborn hopefulness and delusion

Counterflow

Inconspicuously
Before the usual
She opens her eyes
The morning air is a little sweeter
The early sunlight glows
She doesn't know

The world starts to turn to a different beat
Familiar but not the same
There's a buzz in the silence as she lays in bed
And as she gets up with a smile
Her day to her seems the same
But everyone else can feel the change

She can't see it
She doesn't know what she's done
It's at the tip of her consciousness
But it's not time for her yet
She walks, talks, breathes, radiates

In time she'll come to realize
The world will see it in her eyes
In time she will finally see

Here, never there

Mistakes
I've made a few
Found broken hearts
A bit too often
But what the tides bring
You find when it crashes

I should know better
It's the same game
Treading through where I shouldn't be
A stare down I never win
I stay still
Eyes dreamy
But find that I've already gone

Waking up
I see how far I'm in
But it's too late to turn back
Stubborn heart
Hanging on a hook
Broken in a bit