Star gazer

I have loved you from afar for too long. I have been waiting, hoping, and withholding. But I want you to know that you are special. You touch people’s lives, you make days brighter, and you truly are a gift from God. You may not know exactly what you do or how you do it, but neither do I. All I know is that you do and that you never fail to make me smile. You make a lot of people smile.

There are still many things left to be said. Hopefully, you’ll get to hear them all one day. But at least I’m sure that you know that you are indeed special and that you are loved.

Thank you for being you.

Daybreak

The crickets sing their songs again
My eyes remain open, remain strained
The streetlight shines through the window
The television silently flickers
But a blurry vision is all I see

Past the witching hour
My body trembles and my gaze remains steady
The dreams have turned into an addiction
For so long they were the only life I craved for
But I can no longer stand mere shadows of your grin
And a clenched fist in place of your hand

As you lay in gentle slumber
Under the same moonlit sky
As you dream
And as angels watch over one of their own
Do you know that you are being dreamt of?
Every night and every day

The birds will soon perch on my windowpane
The darkness will be overwhelmed by light
And I’ll still be waiting
Awake but unable to move
Heart slowly beating
Hardly breathing
Waiting for the day

One day we will be together
No more illusions
Or hallucinations
Just you and me and the rest of our lives

But for now I remain frozen
Dreaming with my eyes open
Never letting go of hope
Waiting for the day

Unsaid

There are a hundred things that I should have told you and a hundred more that I will. I don’t know if you remember what I told you that night. If you do remember, I don’t think you understood what it meant. You remind me of the horizon. You can see where it ends, but you can never really get to it. No matter how close you try to get, it still stays at a certain distance.

I’m sorry for all the mean things I say to you. I hope you don’t misinterpret the reasons for my actions. When I tease you, I don’t mean to put you down. I tease you because I am disturbed by you. I don’t think I can make you understand exactly what it is in you, at least not now, but trust me that it’s nothing bad.

The truth is, you amaze me. It may not always show, but every time I see you it’s as if my heart stops beating for a few seconds. You always take my breath away. No matter how harassed you may seem, you always look like a ray of sunlight to me. Your mere presence can brighten up my day. Even without uttering a single word, you can make me smile.