Daybreak

The crickets sing their songs again
My eyes remain open, remain strained
The streetlight shines through the window
The television silently flickers
But a blurry vision is all I see

Past the witching hour
My body trembles and my gaze remains steady
The dreams have turned into an addiction
For so long they were the only life I craved for
But I can no longer stand mere shadows of your grin
And a clenched fist in place of your hand

As you lay in gentle slumber
Under the same moonlit sky
As you dream
And as angels watch over one of their own
Do you know that you are being dreamt of?
Every night and every day

The birds will soon perch on my windowpane
The darkness will be overwhelmed by light
And I’ll still be waiting
Awake but unable to move
Heart slowly beating
Hardly breathing
Waiting for the day

One day we will be together
No more illusions
Or hallucinations
Just you and me and the rest of our lives

But for now I remain frozen
Dreaming with my eyes open
Never letting go of hope
Waiting for the day

Unsaid

There are a hundred things that I should have told you and a hundred more that I will. I don’t know if you remember what I told you that night. If you do remember, I don’t think you understood what it meant. You remind me of the horizon. You can see where it ends, but you can never really get to it. No matter how close you try to get, it still stays at a certain distance.

I’m sorry for all the mean things I say to you. I hope you don’t misinterpret the reasons for my actions. When I tease you, I don’t mean to put you down. I tease you because I am disturbed by you. I don’t think I can make you understand exactly what it is in you, at least not now, but trust me that it’s nothing bad.

The truth is, you amaze me. It may not always show, but every time I see you it’s as if my heart stops beating for a few seconds. You always take my breath away. No matter how harassed you may seem, you always look like a ray of sunlight to me. Your mere presence can brighten up my day. Even without uttering a single word, you can make me smile.

Realizations

How hard could it be to be near you
and not be with you?

A million battles rage in my mind:
Should I or should I not
fall deeper into the trap
or realize that there is no trap.

I chose to stay away.

Because you’re keeping a promise
and I’m just a fool who wants to break it.

I am witness to a lie

I am witness to a lie
I have thrust upon myself
Believing in dreams that are only of my own
Longing for a heart that does not want to be found
Staying up to stumble upon you by some uncanny chance

I am witness to a lie
I have thrust upon myself
But continue to believe in
Every day and every night
Until I find you there
Only God knows where
Until we're finally side by side
And we know that everything will be all right

Until the rhymes cease

I do not want to see you here
Or hear you speak to me, my dear
Because I could never resist
Those lips which I so long to kiss
So I must try to stay away from you
Before my feelings bare to be true
I keep my guard and look away
Not allowing a chance for me to say
Everything that should be known by now
The chancing of a broken vow
The promise of a love that’s true
A patiently waiting love for you

But for you to know will be my demise
And so I put on my disguise
I grit my teeth as I let you be
And you walk further away from me

Such is the pain I have to endure
For this kind of love has no cure
To love a heart that loves another
Who treats me as a lowly brother

I look for you all day and night
But wish that you were out of sight
For though you’re gone it still is clear
In my heart you will always be near
Haunting me like an unfulfilled soul
With feelings which have gone out of control
With longing that might never end
The tragedy of loving just a friend

Sleep my dear

Sleep my dear
The night is deep
The evening calm fills the darkness
Your tired little eyes need to rest

Follow the comfort of the sheets
Lay your tender head in bed
Fall into the sweet embrace that surrounds you
And bow to witness the end of another day

Your dreams beckon you
As do I
And I shall find you there
For you are always at my side

In the comfort and coolness of the night
Till the dawn of a bright new day

Your words

You are this poet’s eyes
For I see the world according to your light.

You are this poet’s ears
For all that I hear reminds me of the glory of your love.

You are this poet’s skin
For all that I feel, my incarnate soul, my earthly life, is bound to you.

As I would not want it any other way.