Mas y mas

Some things never cease
Some things never change
Some things just grow more beautiful with time
They don't wither nor fade nor die
They just continue to bloom and blossom
Never bowing down to whatever comes its way
Neither winter nor fall or the cruelty of man to life
It remains as a delicate beauty
Fierce, strong, and ardent

Every time I see you
I lose a bit of myself
I have to catch my breath
I struggle between heartbeats
and I lose grip on all my sensibilities

You slay me
drive me crazy
you never let me rest
l see you in the morning sun, the afternoon sky, and the evening rain

You never let me breathe
nor wince
nor sigh
without filling me with a tremendous longing for your smile
keeping me in a helpless distance from your touch

Just to see you smile
to know that you're comfortable
to make sure you won't have a reason to put your head down
That would be all I need to satisfy the rest of my days
That is the only calm I seek before I give in to the night

Null object

Perhaps the humdrum of daily life has won over me again. Perhaps it's time to find those passions, those personal legends, that I have been putting on hold for the longest time.

Again

Another cold morning breaks
I ask myself why I'm still not over you.

You see no matter what happens it seems
that it always comes back to you.

Can't help it

You know that I’ve given up the idea of anything romantic between me and her, but every time I see her, I just can’t help myself. There’s really something about her that I just can’t resist. It’s her totality, her presence. I don’t know really. It’s just her being there.

I can’t help myself when I’m around her. No matter how much I prep myself that what I’m going through is just a phase, when she’s there, I just drop to my knees. No matter how much I convince myself that not listening to my feelings will be best for everyone, when I sense her presence, I just melt.

Tonight, she’s got me going crazy. I can’t live with this. I’m forcing myself to look at this as an omen. All things do happen for a reason. I believe that now. And I’m looking forward to the future.

Star gazer

I have loved you from afar for too long. I have been waiting, hoping, and withholding. But I want you to know that you are special. You touch people’s lives, you make days brighter, and you truly are a gift from God. You may not know exactly what you do or how you do it, but neither do I. All I know is that you do and that you never fail to make me smile. You make a lot of people smile.

There are still many things left to be said. Hopefully, you’ll get to hear them all one day. But at least I’m sure that you know that you are indeed special and that you are loved.

Thank you for being you.

Daybreak

The crickets sing their songs again
My eyes remain open, remain strained
The streetlight shines through the window
The television silently flickers
But a blurry vision is all I see

Past the witching hour
My body trembles and my gaze remains steady
The dreams have turned into an addiction
For so long they were the only life I craved for
But I can no longer stand mere shadows of your grin
And a clenched fist in place of your hand

As you lay in gentle slumber
Under the same moonlit sky
As you dream
And as angels watch over one of their own
Do you know that you are being dreamt of?
Every night and every day

The birds will soon perch on my windowpane
The darkness will be overwhelmed by light
And I’ll still be waiting
Awake but unable to move
Heart slowly beating
Hardly breathing
Waiting for the day

One day we will be together
No more illusions
Or hallucinations
Just you and me and the rest of our lives

But for now I remain frozen
Dreaming with my eyes open
Never letting go of hope
Waiting for the day

Unsaid

There are a hundred things that I should have told you and a hundred more that I will. I don’t know if you remember what I told you that night. If you do remember, I don’t think you understood what it meant. You remind me of the horizon. You can see where it ends, but you can never really get to it. No matter how close you try to get, it still stays at a certain distance.

I’m sorry for all the mean things I say to you. I hope you don’t misinterpret the reasons for my actions. When I tease you, I don’t mean to put you down. I tease you because I am disturbed by you. I don’t think I can make you understand exactly what it is in you, at least not now, but trust me that it’s nothing bad.

The truth is, you amaze me. It may not always show, but every time I see you it’s as if my heart stops beating for a few seconds. You always take my breath away. No matter how harassed you may seem, you always look like a ray of sunlight to me. Your mere presence can brighten up my day. Even without uttering a single word, you can make me smile.